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<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\nJanhvi Kapoor<\/a> may often come across as composed and cheerful in public, but she has now revealed that the period following her debut film Dhadak was far more emotionally turbulent than it appeared.Speaking on Raj Shamani\u2019s podcast, Janhvi revisited her state of mind around the film\u2019s release in 2018. Despite the film\u2019s commercial success and positive feedback, she said her personal experience was marked by self-doubt and emotional distress. <\/p>\n Watch<\/span><\/p>\n Janhvi Kapoor Slams Meme Culture Targeting Arjun Kapoor, Says Bullying Isn\u2019t Entertainment<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n \u201cYou know, every time anyone talks to me about my first film, Dhadak, they are like, \u2018she was so good in it\u2019 or that \u2018we loved Dhadak\u2019 and \u2018you earned a lot of money\u2019… But my memory of Dhadak was very different. I was depressed after Dhadak. I thought ho gaya and that packup hogaya (I am done). People hate me,\u201d she shared.Janhvi went on to explain how the loss of her mother, legendary actor Sridevi, deeply impacted her during that phase. Sridevi passed away just months before Dhadak hit theatres, leaving Janhvi grappling with grief while stepping into the spotlight.\u201cI got all of my validation in my life from my mom. She went away. So I was like, okay, I\u2019m going to shift that to the audience. And I was expecting some across-the-board acceptance, which I didn\u2019t know does not exist,\u201d she said. <\/p>\n Watch<\/span><\/p>\n Janhvi Kapoor recalls how Sridevi\u2019s death became ‘entertainment for half the nation’<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n Reflecting on her mindset at the time, the actor admitted that she fixated only on criticism, ignoring the film\u2019s success. \u201cI was only concentrating on the negative. I didn\u2019t concentrate or even acknowledge the fact that it was a very… I think it was the most commercially successful film with newcomers up until Saiyaara. It didn\u2019t even click to me that it was a hit. I just knew that I sucked and people hated me… Because I only looked at the negative, and that became my reality.\u201d Directed by Shashank Khaitan and backed by Karan Johar<\/a>, Dhadak also starred Ishaan Khatter and was the official Hindi remake of the Marathi blockbuster Sairat.<\/div>\n